Lately, I've been in a funk. It's made me extremely irritable and I get upset at the littlest things. After being on vacation, I've come to realize some things. I don't really want the life that I lead. Part of me is wanting to get the hell out of Arizona. I feel as if I need new surroundings, new people. I've been mixed up in all sorts of drama for far too long and it kind of took it's toll on me. It's affected my diet, my mood, my relationships, my job...everything. In turn, it feels like I've slowly managed to slip into depression. Not good. I used to be able to pick myself up after these kind of things, but it's been really hard this time. I fell really hard and I'm unable to do it on my own. I'm in need of assistance and I feel like every time I start to get back up, something comes around to push me right back down again. It's a sad feeling. I feel sort of alone, even though I know I'm not. I have a hard time explaining my feelings and the thoughts going on in my head. Words have never been something I'm good with. I'm better at writing. I'm really missing my family. In both Oregon and Iowa. I thought I was okay, but some days I'm really not. I will be though, and in the end, that's what matters.
Well, that it's for now folks. Just a little blurb to help explain the mood swings. Peace out.
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now that you can identify that you need help, will you take the steps to get it? There's no shame in reaching out. It actually takes a really strong person to do it. No matter how hard you try, sometimes you just need the extra boost. Love ya!
Trust your guts and go with it! Don't worry what others will think. Those who love you most will always be right there behind you to either give you that extra push or a hand to get back on your feet again. I love you.
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