Feeeeeelings....

Ever notice how when you're upset or frustrated during the holiday season, people will tell you, "Don't worry, Christmas is coming." As if that's going to make everything better. Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas. But it doesn't fix my problems. It just puts them on hold for a day. Most of you know that I had pink eye all last week and that I was out of work until Thursday. Well, on Wednesday my co-teacher went on her lunch break and never returned. She just left. Mind you, I was out sick and had no idea this was going on. She had my phone number, she could've sent me a text message telling me she'd had it. She owed me that much. So on Thursday, I went in feeling pretty good. I was looking forward to getting out of the house 'cause I had been cooped up for four days. When I walked into the building, nobody in management had the courtesy to tell me that my co-teacher quit. None of them. I was there for an hour before I heard it from one of my other co-workers. I was absolutely devasted and I had the hardest time holding back my tears all day. I felt like I was being overly sensitive about it. But I mean, we were good friends! It was the last thing I was expecting. I mean, I don't blame her for doing that to the company, but she kinda screwed me over too, ya know? It's so selfish. Now it's my mess to clean up and I'm so tired of cleaning up everyone elses messes. I'm mentally drained. I don't like going into work, feeling like a prisoner. Yes, that's what I feel like! Once you go in, you don't know when you're going to get out! True story. It's been quite stressful there. I have kids in my class who are a pain in the friggen ass and they don't belong to me. They belonged to my co-teacher. Ugh....So frustrating.

I'm hanging in there, guys. Just waiting for that awesome job to come. Sent in 2 applications last week. Keep your fingers crossed. I need all the help I can get!

Anyways, Merry Christmas guys. Thanks for reading.