Bring on the new year

This Christmas kinda blew. I dunno. I was never really in the "Christmas spirit" for some reason. I was just living through it. Don't get me wrong, I got amazing gifts from everyone and I was really excited to give my presents, but I still wasn't really satisfied with everyone's reactions. I mean they all loved my gifts...I can't really explain it. I've been in a sort of funk ever since my co-worker walked out on me. I hate change. I hate coming back to such a huge change. I don't like it when my little world has been tampered with in such a big way. It's frustrating. But I'm doing the best that I can. I'm dealing. There are so many changes that are about to happen and I need to man up and accept them all. Let's see...we got my weight loss, my family moving, my job, going back to school...Change is inevitable. It's always happening. I'm a fool to think otherwise. I need to suck it up. I don't have to like it, but like I said, I need to accept it. Life would be boring without change. So incredibly boring. And I think that's part of my problem. My life doesn't have enough change going on. I have the same routine practically every day (weekends not included). Get up, go to work, come home, bed, get up, go to work, come home, bed...How boring is that?? I'm like a robot. I need to live. I need to take the time and go out with my friends on week nights. So what if I get an hour or 2 less of sleep? I can catch up the next night :) I hate going to bed on the week nights though. I've joked about it with my coworkers, but I truly mean it. The sooner I go to bed, the sooner I have to get up and go to work. Isn't that an awful way to think?? Nobody should live like that. Nobody. And yet, here I am. Living the life I always dreaded to live. I need some excitement. That's my new years resolution - excitement. Next weekend, I'm going through my closet and getting rid of all the clothes I don't wear anymore. I going through all the junk I own and I'm throwing away the stuff I don't use. I'm ready to look change in the eye. I'm embracing it, welcoming it with open arms. This is what I need. Some of you are probably laughing, but I'm taking baby steps. I will overcome this! :)

Anyways, this blog turned in to something I really wasn't expecting. Didn't mean to rant like that. But I must admit, I do feel better! Happy New Year! :) I hope you all had an amazing holiday. Thanks for reading.