Hello, Bloggers!

It's been a while since I've used this handy dandy blogging site. I kinda forgot about it. And I've been a little busy with school and life. Life has been pretty dramatic for me lately. But it's slowly, but surely, getting back to normal. I haven't been doing that great on my diet. I've put on around 10 pounds over the last 2 months, because of all the stress and drama that has been going on in my life. However, starting tomorrow, I'm officially back on the diet. No cheating whatsoever. And I'm starting a kickboxing class tonight that I'm completely stoked about. I think by doing this, it'll help me lose weight even faster. It's time for me to get phsyical, physical! :) hehe. I'm trying not to stress too much about my weight gain. I've still lost 20 pounds and that's pretty amazing to me. I think that I look trim. And the most important thing is that I'm comfortable in my own skin. This diet has given me more confidence than I could have ever asked for. I'm good with that.

I went to California to visit my "Aunt Kelly" and "Uncle John" :) Haha...We went for Kelly's baby shower. It was a blast, but way too short! You seriously can't spend just 2 days in Cali. You hafta be able to actually spend time there, ya know? It wasn't very relaxing because we were just always going. Constantly...but I had a really good time! I must say though, Kelly and John are one of the only couples that I see who just seem to keep falling even more in love with each other. I admire them for that and I'm completely jealous of what they have, but very glad that they are both truly happy. I love watching them together. They're just so sweet! And they love being in each other's company. And they aren't too mushy about it. It's just...sweet! I know I already said that, but I'm running out of words to say.

Anyways, that's pretty much all I've got to say. I just wanted to check in. I'm not sure if anyone even reads this site anymore, but whatever! I enjoy writing :) Thanks for stopping by!

Hellz Yeah!

Hello my fellow blog readers! Just droppin in to write a quick note. I'm sitting here thinking to myself how worked up we all get over the superbowl. Even I get worked up; me who doesn't pay any attention to football whatsoever during the season. There's something about the superbowl that's exciting. I mean we treat it like it's a national holiday. Most men would probably argue with me on that one and say that it IS a holiday :) It's so amazing how well the Cardinals are doing. I'm not gonna sit here and pretend like I'm a huge Cardinals fan or anything, but I have to support them because they're my home team. It's nice to see them FINALLY doing well! I just don't like how everyone here has jumped on the bandwagon and is all of a sudden huge Cardinals fans. Most people here probably don't know a thing about them. Sad truth. Anyways, that's my sports talk for the day :)

I'm officially back in school and it's going well. It was the right decison and I'm way proud of myself! It's hard going back after being out for a year. I had several people tell me they didn't think I would go back. I started to believe it too. But after being stuck at Tutor Time for so long, I decided that that was no way to live...No way to live at all. What am I doing for a living? Raising kids, training to be a mom and a housewife. No thanks. Not for me. Not yet at least...I mean I'm only 20 years old folks! I need a career. I'm actually enjoying my job now though. Four days out of the week I only work four hours. So I'm able to tolerate it a little bit better. Yeah, it's a big cut in pay, but it's really okay. I don't need to be making a huge amount of money.

Anyways, I think that's really all I need to say for the time being :) I'll try to check in more often. Thanks for reading guys!

Back to School, Back to School...

I'm totally stoked because after being off for a year, I am officially going back to school in a week :) And I actually have a sense of direction this time. I'm going to get my AA in science because I've decided that I am going to go ahead and pursue zoology. There are so many things I would like to do, but I need to stick with one for now. I love animals. I love everything about them and they truly make me my happiest. Haha, yes I know that was corny. But it is so true. So it only makes sense to do something that I love. I'm so excited :) I feel good! And I feel more dedicated than I have in a while. Yay.

I chopped my hair yesterday. Well, I took about 2 inches off. And my layers on top are really short, which I hate but they need to get cut too. The guy told me that if I want my hair to be one length again, I'm going to have to cut it into the angled bob thing, which I contemplated doing it this time but I wasn't ready. However, next time I think I'm going to do it. Ugh...yeah I'm going to. My hair has thinned out so much and it's cause I have all those stupid short layers on the top of my head. Haha, yes I'm really writing about my hair in my blog. We all know how obsessed I am with it :) But I'll end it here.

I went in for my weigh in on Tuesday and I gained 3 pounds. I really wasn't that upset about it though. I was expecting it. I've been slacking way too much. But I'm finally getting back on track. My mom and I started walking again this week, and I'm gonna start doing a thousand crunches (haha not literally) 'cause my mom got me an awesome crunch ball for Christmas :) Last weekend I bought my first new pairs of jeans that are smaller than the size I've been wearing, AND I got rid of several pairs that were too big. Haha that's so exciting! This is going to be a good year. I think this is going to be the year I've been waiting for. I've been waiting for my life to change drastically and I really think this is it!

Anyways, just felt the need to write. I'm way excited about everything and I wanted to share my excitement with ya'll. Thanks for tuning in!

Bring on the new year

This Christmas kinda blew. I dunno. I was never really in the "Christmas spirit" for some reason. I was just living through it. Don't get me wrong, I got amazing gifts from everyone and I was really excited to give my presents, but I still wasn't really satisfied with everyone's reactions. I mean they all loved my gifts...I can't really explain it. I've been in a sort of funk ever since my co-worker walked out on me. I hate change. I hate coming back to such a huge change. I don't like it when my little world has been tampered with in such a big way. It's frustrating. But I'm doing the best that I can. I'm dealing. There are so many changes that are about to happen and I need to man up and accept them all. Let's see...we got my weight loss, my family moving, my job, going back to school...Change is inevitable. It's always happening. I'm a fool to think otherwise. I need to suck it up. I don't have to like it, but like I said, I need to accept it. Life would be boring without change. So incredibly boring. And I think that's part of my problem. My life doesn't have enough change going on. I have the same routine practically every day (weekends not included). Get up, go to work, come home, bed, get up, go to work, come home, bed...How boring is that?? I'm like a robot. I need to live. I need to take the time and go out with my friends on week nights. So what if I get an hour or 2 less of sleep? I can catch up the next night :) I hate going to bed on the week nights though. I've joked about it with my coworkers, but I truly mean it. The sooner I go to bed, the sooner I have to get up and go to work. Isn't that an awful way to think?? Nobody should live like that. Nobody. And yet, here I am. Living the life I always dreaded to live. I need some excitement. That's my new years resolution - excitement. Next weekend, I'm going through my closet and getting rid of all the clothes I don't wear anymore. I going through all the junk I own and I'm throwing away the stuff I don't use. I'm ready to look change in the eye. I'm embracing it, welcoming it with open arms. This is what I need. Some of you are probably laughing, but I'm taking baby steps. I will overcome this! :)

Anyways, this blog turned in to something I really wasn't expecting. Didn't mean to rant like that. But I must admit, I do feel better! Happy New Year! :) I hope you all had an amazing holiday. Thanks for reading.

Feeeeeelings....

Ever notice how when you're upset or frustrated during the holiday season, people will tell you, "Don't worry, Christmas is coming." As if that's going to make everything better. Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas. But it doesn't fix my problems. It just puts them on hold for a day. Most of you know that I had pink eye all last week and that I was out of work until Thursday. Well, on Wednesday my co-teacher went on her lunch break and never returned. She just left. Mind you, I was out sick and had no idea this was going on. She had my phone number, she could've sent me a text message telling me she'd had it. She owed me that much. So on Thursday, I went in feeling pretty good. I was looking forward to getting out of the house 'cause I had been cooped up for four days. When I walked into the building, nobody in management had the courtesy to tell me that my co-teacher quit. None of them. I was there for an hour before I heard it from one of my other co-workers. I was absolutely devasted and I had the hardest time holding back my tears all day. I felt like I was being overly sensitive about it. But I mean, we were good friends! It was the last thing I was expecting. I mean, I don't blame her for doing that to the company, but she kinda screwed me over too, ya know? It's so selfish. Now it's my mess to clean up and I'm so tired of cleaning up everyone elses messes. I'm mentally drained. I don't like going into work, feeling like a prisoner. Yes, that's what I feel like! Once you go in, you don't know when you're going to get out! True story. It's been quite stressful there. I have kids in my class who are a pain in the friggen ass and they don't belong to me. They belonged to my co-teacher. Ugh....So frustrating.

I'm hanging in there, guys. Just waiting for that awesome job to come. Sent in 2 applications last week. Keep your fingers crossed. I need all the help I can get!

Anyways, Merry Christmas guys. Thanks for reading.

Sick Day

Alrighty, so somehow I've managed to get pink eye. Awesome, right? I can't even remember the last time I had pink eye. It's so embarrassing though. I look completely stoned. I went to the doctor today and he recommended that I stay home from work until Thursday (heck yes!). When he first saw me, his jaw literally dropped. He told me he hasn't seen eyes this bad in a long time. So here I am, sitting at home writing a blog with big, pink, puffy eyes. I woke up this morning and my eyes were literally glued shut because of all the nasty gunk. I had to pull them open. Oy vay. The doctor seems to think it's all my sinuses acting up and it's just coming out through my eyes. LOL Wow...

Enough about that. Ten days left until Christmas. I can't believe that. I don't feel like I've really had time to enjoy it at all. It all seems to be happening and yet, I'm not really embracing it. I don't really know why. But I'm still just excited. I've found some really awesome gifts for people and I can't wait for them to open them :) Yay.

Anyways, nothing else to report. Just wanted to write a small blog since I have nothing else to do and I can't really leave the house looking like this. Happy Holidays :)

Lala Is My Name, Random Is My Game

You know what one of my favorite things about Thanksgiving is? How little traffic there is. I know it sounds weird, but I've always been fascinated by that fact. Just looking out onto the street only seeing one car pass by about every ten minutes. For one day, most people are spending the day at home with the ones they love, without any other care in the world. I love it. I love that for just one day, the world stops completely. All you do is focus on the delicious dinner you are soon going to eat and you're enjoying your family's company. Random thought for the day :)

Ever since I've started this diet, I've been getting a lot of compliments - on everything. My clothes, my hair, my makeup, my shoes, my socks, my jewelery, how skinny I look, how pretty I am. Don't get me wrong, it's all very flattering. But at the same time it's a little overwhelming. I've never been good with compliments. I get easily embarrassed. I'm one of those people where I'd rather be complimented behind my back rather than to my face, you know? But at the same time, I love it. I need to hear it because it just inspires me to keep going with this, that it actually is working. I'm not complaining, so please don't mistake this for that. It's all new to me. For once, people are jealous of me. Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating a bit there. But you get what I'm trying to say.

I'm completely engaged in the Twilight book. I know, I'm just like everyone else out there. But it fascinates me. And what fascinates me even more is how much I have in common with the character Bella. Maybe I'll meet some hot, studly vampire who won't be able to stay away from me ;) Haha, totally kidding. I'm not that obsessed folks. But it really is a good book. I highly recommend it!

I'm excited because I've gotten most of my Christmas shopping done. Now I'm feeling like Christmas. It was hard for me to get excited about it, with the whole Iwoa thing. Then I realized I was just being a Debbie Downer and I needed to suck it up. So that's exactly what I'm doing and I'm stoked for Christmas to come. Yay!

Alrighty, random blog. Random is how I roll though. Get over it :) I hope you all had a great holiday weekend. I certainly did! Take care everyone. Thanks for reading! Lala - out! (haha...oh I still think that's funny)